simply me;

2010-07-26T21:44:00.004+08:00

this little boy up here who's my work mate whom i really love alot whom im very close with & just yesterday, the very moment it happened, I SO HATE HIM. he made me fall. ass him. dont like him. he grab my ankle making me lost my balance cause he didnt let go of my leg. damn it. i fell using my fore arm to protect my head at last knowing my fore arm had scratches and has a big blue black right now! everyone said it's swollen. gosh its painful alright. i cannot take it. want to smoke also so hard. & its right hand la okay. all i do with right hand. ccb him. hmph. thanks to him im suffering!

2010-07-22T00:55:00.003+08:00

i went shopping with cinte & it was fun.

oh well basically changed her dressing.

instead of being the typical growing mat rep to a much relax one :)

was suppose to changed her to a girl though.

but heh i think both of us just couldn't resists our eyes to see the boys one.

it was a good evening spent with her.

& guess what!

it was her first time eating lor mee today.

gosh it was funny how her reaction was when the food came

she said it smell very herbal.

and we met cha, ryni & black and friends.

black and cinte bully me like crazy.

hate them but love them.

thats it for today :)

2010-07-18T02:25:00.003+08:00

a simple countdown which brings a good friendship.

& the love i have for you is infinity.

lots of disturbing things has been happening.

im not glad it did but i guess i just couldnt stop it from happening.

since i slapped someone, it really got me thinking ;

why do people need me to use violence on them then they'll change ,

like really JUST me.

someone said, cause elly, you're someone that alot can depend on.

maybe i suppose but im not perfect.

get this straight IM NOT PERFECT!

i dont live in this world to live up the expectation of others.

i dont know why i got to make them happy anyway.

haish.

im sorry if ive made my actions speak louder than words.

read this carefully,

I LOVE NURFARHNA BINTE ROSLEE

& thats it (fullstop)

in your eyes, it may look like im treating her bad,

cause im being too nice to others.

thats my nature and i cant help it though i get from alot to be more self centred.

it may have caused confusions but i know what i want.

im not treating my girlfriend bad.

2010-07-10T00:31:00.003+08:00

oh my god! i went shopping. whee! gosh. happy. that time no so bad la. bought 2 stuffs. today i bought 4 :) extra two. haha. but i still owe myself a hot pants. damn it. i so need to go to tamp cotton on. shit mann. stupid 313 and yishun cotton on dont have. must get it before the stock clears. and my money finish. haha!

then i went to yishun to meet shasz then she accompany me eat mee soto. not bad. sodap oi. haha. random then i drank mineral water. cute kan? heh. went to woodlands after that to slack.

sometimes i just think nowadays, things are not the same. everyone's parting. it seems like woodlands is so quiet. the live is in tampines right now. its so complicated. oh wells. cant say much here.

goodnight and goodbye :)

2010-07-03T18:21:00.003+08:00

today sucks!

i swear today sucks.

everyone pisses me off today.

i lost a friend.

i lost mom's trust.

gosh what the phuck is happening??!

2010-06-25T00:03:00.003+08:00

days has been so packed.

it was an awesome time spent with loved ones and work.

it's been some time since i felt this.

it does feels good and i really dont want it to end.

school's reopening pretty soon and i so dont want that.

its not cause i hate school but i just will miss these awesome time.

kl trip was nit so good but its okay.

i think i've changed and alot thats it .

fights occurred but i just didnt put it to mind.

it was a hurtful one though im taking it well.

even a few tears dropped, im still accepting it.

whatever it is, i know i still love you.

& girl, i've not lost.

you got it wrong and YOU LOST.

2010-06-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

hello hello!

sorry for the long gone.

lots of things happened.

just a short post for you mister if you know who you are.

im very disappointed in you for not turning up yesterday.

you very much wanted it and yet you backed off.

what more you flee leaving all of us especially me.

what are you trying to do?

run away from reality?

dude pick yourself up.

gosh love,

i'll always be here no matter how fucked up you are.

and i have told you that umpteen times.

please call me if you've read it.

2010-05-30T23:35:00.002+08:00

its been some time since i post. well i think im just too lazy too. things have been good. broken up and single. still loving girls. haha! alot of necessary things has been happening. i dont know how much whoever hates me but guess what. it doesn't bother me. haish. school's been a dread as always. too many datelines and too many papers. gosh. and im so loving people like syakirin, faati, bert and hana. you guys are best in times of crisis. haha. oh missing out thanks azu too for your nasty comments that's not needed. haha!

all i know now my time is about school and work.

all i know who needs me then find me.

all i know all these while im treated like a doll.

all i know im better off without you.

there's no point of me saying that i still love you and miss you cause guess what, you're so mean to say such things in the first place. come on. grow up okay. im not your toygirl, im not your doll. dont regard me as one if you think im your girlfriend. goodbye take care.

2010-05-15T23:51:00.003+08:00

it was a jolly good day from yesterday till people just has to spoil it all. gosh. it's so no point being nice when no one even cares. i give up. your life is yours and mine is mine. not referring to any particular people. but if you dug it, that's your problem. not mine. im sick of caring and then get shits in the end. keep your problems to yourself. truths are truths. hide it or reveal it. it'll still be the same.

2010-05-15T00:30:00.002+08:00

i passed and im happy

yay! now i just need to get a car

haha kidding

im thankful to parents and whoever who has prayed for me

without your support i'll never be here

thank you all ; i love you lots

2010-05-13T22:40:00.004+08:00

i had car prac and it went okay

only that i kept forgetting to on the signals

then went to bedok to meet hanababy

went for dinner while waiting for ash and roy

then we slacked at playground

alot of funny things happened okay!

hana was shouting like crazy over a worm

then she kept stepping on snails

then roy was being bullied by me and ash

and ash finished up my mango tea!

many more actually happened but i cant remember

it was an enjoyable evening after all

2010-05-13T00:02:00.002+08:00

alhamdulilah my leg's recovering.

had a small argument with cinte.

but i guess things are better now.

days are still shagged.

had 2 days of mc.

today was a fucked up day.

was alone for tourism.

got nagged for no reason.

damn i dont want to elaborate further.

im just hoping for the best in time to come.

i hope my groupmates and me would hang on.

i love you guys.

2010-05-09T00:18:00.006+08:00

went shisha on friday.

with cha,ahky,cinte,khai,iqah,ash,roy,baby,fiq

it was a fucked up and tiring day for me.

everywhere was full.

& what more the weather was damn hot.

though the night went well.

EXCEPT i met with an accident thanks to cinte!

he willy the bike and we fell side ways.

now my leg's swollen and i cant walk properly.

so is hers.

though i still love her.

baby dont feel guilty alright.

i'll be fine and im A OKAY :)

and you better be fine too.

stop denying you're not in pain!

as of saturday;

didnt go to work thanks to my ankle

slept like till late afternoon

met cha , ahky and hana about 5plus

then slacked at tamp

played arcade while waiting for cinte

played old maid and cards

iqah old maid!!

done for today

2010-05-07T00:05:00.005+08:00

today was tiring like crazy

had school from eight till one

then went lunch to accompany riza

got home and rest for bloody hour

went out for car prac

i wasnt focusing

everything was wrong

my driving was like shit today

pissed with cinte

she spoiled my mood more

but i just chillex

went to meet aida over at bedok

munched on sushi while waiting for her

then accompanied aida to eat her cinnamon melts

went over to tamp to slack

met iqah, khai, cha and ahky

hot news ;

got molested by a young boy from metta school!

got visually molested by an indian man inside bus!

was asked if i was single or attached by friend's brother!

so damn fucked up okay my day. ish

2010-05-06T00:05:00.004+08:00

somehow or rather i just miss those times i had with them. awful much missing them. had the greatest times with them.

had a long long day today. firstly i didnt go school. woke up at 8 and bath bus down meet some friends over at pasir ris. went to ananas cafe to have my mee soto! cause i was craving for it. yummy! then went home to rest for awhile. met hanababy after that and slacked awhile while waiting for aida to come down.

after that had to follow aida go bedok to do her hair and then meet some friends while waiting for her hair to be done. dang. bored. ash came down soon after then we proceed to tampines to meet cha and iqah. khai was bloody late that we decided to go off. haha. sorry khai.

tiring long day. oh had a small tiff with cinte just now. awful. dont want to elaborate. i just want to say i bloody miss her truck lots and i love her much. take curry peepos.

2010-05-05T01:31:00.005+08:00

just these three words i can afford to say

cinte i miss you so much but i dont know how to show it to you

barriers and tests are crawling up to stop us

2010-05-03T23:40:00.004+08:00

saye like dont know whats happening to me.

sometimes i just feel like im losing faith.

but i know deep down i still love you.

im sorry baby if im a bad girlfriend.

2010-05-03T00:31:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY MUHD KHAI! !

i hoped you had a great night with us

may all your wishes and dreams come true

we love you

2010-05-02T00:38:00.002+08:00

i myself am wondering why i am like that. why cant i learn to let go? he's long gone. it's been 6 months and why am i letting myself suffer this way? cinte, im sorry to be a bad gf to you. i know you're trying to understand my situation when it comes to him. but baby trust me i will never go back to him okay no matter how much i love or need or miss him. no way. he's long moved on and so should i. im with you now.

someone please tell me how to let go?

2010-04-30T01:18:00.002+08:00

cute quote right?

people will never tend to run away from making mistakes

so forgive and try to forget

be strong babies whoever is going through tough times

always try be optimistic and clear all doubts

2010-04-29T00:16:00.006+08:00

all the times that we've spent

the pictures that i've not upload

so go ahead and steal:)

times were great

i love you guys

& to syakirin;

i know you're going through abit of tough times for now

im here and please be strong. i dont want you to give up

i, we, them really miss you much.

2010-04-26T21:41:00.002+08:00

happy birthday sayang!

hoped you like the smuf i got for you

i love you alot okay cinte

2010-04-21T18:24:00.006+08:00

you bring me smile.
you bring me tears.
you bring me joy.
you showed me everything.
thats's why i just love you.

2010-04-19T15:34:00.005+08:00

saye at cc with nuyul and my internet's down.

and everyone's having problems. sodey.

elly also have but i'll be cool and calm.

school's a dread as per normal.

meeting sayang sayang kus later. da bye!

elly rindu shas!

2010-04-17T18:28:00.003+08:00

"tired is all i can say right now"

things has been harsh and also tiring. been working and schooling and this one whole week orientation. whoa. school's a dread. really. and today's shift. damn i got sunburnt. at downtown mccafe now with hana. using her lappy. cause my internet's down. and so is my prepaid. shit. im out of cash. f mann. well i just gotta accept it now.

cinte is sick and we've been quarreling alot now due to the same reasons. shit. im sorry dee. im so busy with schedule that im so afraid that either of us will give up. haish. im missing you badly. i wont be able to meet you for like 4 days straight. haish. gosh help me.

2010-04-15T00:00:00.004+08:00

school's norm. the thing is now im learning something! to get away from cinta. haha. but guess i cant. she wants to meet me tomorrow. dang. we got great plans ahead of us for the next few days. oh wells straight up ahead. im missing her right now. and oh. cinta is going to have curfew. kental kan?! never happened tell she met me i guess. cool la. i got curfew and she also have. haha doinks.

after school met baby, hafiz, mizi, ryan and friend at starbucks. slacked + smoked for awhile and then went home to FB and also sleep. duh. tired okay. went down again to meet hafiz and friend. then iqbal and arep came along. dang. bored tired sleepy got home to rest. watched tv infect. its been some time! haha. okay bye. another day tomorrow! whoa! and and dang i go P.E. stoopid.

2010-04-13T00:03:00.004+08:00

had a great evening spent with didee. happy nye get to see her. whee! miss her like crazy alright. and oh, my eye tembel (swollen). rabak la okay. ish. got alot of taik mate. haha. dang. right a brief description. first day of school. ya allah! i was doing orietation. shit. i scolded the kids. im sorry alright. but they dont cooperate. binget gue. afterall good day. just tired. leg cramp. okay bye.

2010-04-09T14:34:00.004+08:00

these days, it has been rough.

what more my relationship.

sucks like phuck.

i've been hearing things that im not suppose to.

it's heartbreaking.

im upset but i just got to hold on.

2010-04-08T02:33:00.002+08:00

i fucking miss you like crazy!

day by day my love for you is growing

thanks for ending my nights with a smile

i love you cinta.

2010-04-07T19:39:00.002+08:00

love is not just a 4 letter word

baby, we'll pull it through somehow

let's try to sail the path smoothly

2010-04-06T00:11:00.004+08:00

it was a well evening spent today. went off to grandlink for karaoke session with baby, hafiz, palat and cinte. we were at it for 4 hours. long right? i know. heh. though im cool :) then went back to simei to eat. hungry doh! haha. now im home sweet home. *winks winks*

2010-04-04T03:20:00.003+08:00

thats how much time we spent

& you're letting it go

get this straight alright. i need you as a friend and i still love you as a friend. but if you want to take your leave. then go ahead. i wont stop you anymore. i dont know what else to say to you. im going to let things fall in place right now. you choose your path alright. whatever it is. im always here. thats all i got to say. i mean. i know you mean alot to me and vice versa. but since you say i hurt you by something i've said. im sorry. im a loser in love. goodbye my lover. goodbye my friend.

2010-04-03T01:26:00.006+08:00

the thought of having you in my life is just oh so perfect.

but to think again, baby im scared.

i need you to guide me through and take the steps with me.

can you?

are you able to do it?

2010-04-02T23:43:00.003+08:00

it was a half day spent at escape. just the 6 of us.

effing hot, wet & tiring.

2010-03-31T00:38:00.005+08:00

a day spent with loved ones. many more pics actually. heh

today me and dd camwhore like crazy. whee!

haha. banyak new pics kite oi:)

theres people like iqah, herlyna, nina & erica missing out.

okay da bye people. have fun looking.

son & stepmother

son, father & stepmother

exchange couples;)

kakak & adek!

meh awesome!

2010-03-30T01:30:00.001+08:00

justin bieber- common denominator

Just a fraction of your love fills the air

And I fall in love with you all over again, oh

You're the light that faced the sun in my world

I'd face a thousand years of pain for my girl

Out of all the things in life that I could fear

The only thing that would hurt me

Is if you weren't here, oh

I don't wanna go back to just being one half of the equation

You understand what I'm saying?

Girl, without you I'm lost

Can't fix this compass at heart

Between me and love,

You're the common denominator

oh, oh, ohhh, oh

Youre the common denominator

oh, oh, ohhh, oh

Before you love was low plain girls was my high

We chase the game that would put my cot in the side, aye

Broken heart rise up to say love is a lie

You and I would stand to be loves reply, yeah

Out of all things in life that I could fear, yeah

The only thing that would hurt me

Is if you weren't here, here, here, yeahh, yeahh

I don't wanna go back to just being one half of the equation

You understand what I'm saying? (Do you understand?)

Girl, without you I'm lost

Can't fix this compass at heart

Between me and love,

You're the common denominator

oh, oh, ohhh, oh

Youre the common denominator

oh, oh, ohhh, oh

I cant imagine life without your touch

Every kiss that you give can fill me up

And to all the heart aching

Jealous females hate it

Imma hold it down for you

You, oh, woah

You're the common denominator

Oh, yeah, woah

I don't wanna go back

I don't wanna go back to just being one half of the equation (Half of the equation)

You understand what I'm saying? (Woahh, ohh, ouu, woahh)

Girl, without you I'm lost

Can't fix this compass at heart

Between me and love (Between me and love)

You're the common denominator

oh, oh, ohhh, oh

Youre the common denominator

oh, oh, ohhh, oh

Just a fraction of your love fills the air

And I fall in love with you all over again

2010-03-29T22:10:00.007+08:00

the rest are all with ash. ash aku nk pic! hmph

i know my face ugly. haha

the things we carried through bus. haha!

a splendid birthday cake surprise

haha. f! no make up:)

lots of things happened over at chalet for the past 3 consecutive nights. too many to even remember. it was a damn tiring yet awesome time anyway. i got birthday sabo 3 nights straight! omg! haha. the evenings were fine; the nights were drastic. after all it was worthwhile to put up with all the shits that happened. again i thank everyone who came to celebrate it with me, even for just a short time. your attendance is much appreciated loved ones. you guys made it happen. thank you babies. muacks!

2010-03-26T16:26:00.005+08:00

its a fine start for me. hana came to my place to watch me sleep and pass me my present. sweet kan kan. haha. first present of the day a baby tom, a stalk of red rose and a kiss on my forehead. WHILE IM SLEEPING! haha. okay da shh.

but oh wells, now like the plan abit cock up. macam nak cancel okay. but no no. haish. okay bye. hoping for a good day plus night. will be back to update after chalet:) selamat tinggal rakan rakan.

2010-03-25T23:33:00.003+08:00

3 T's to describe my day;

Trash

Tiring

Totally fucked up

i fucking failed my tp test. and im so not over it. gosh.

im so going to go for second time and nail it.i aint giving up.

happy birthday to me in roughly 25mins? heh. okay bye.

elliee just hates herself for failing right now. can i break down? :(

2010-03-24T00:49:00.005+08:00

new days AHEAD of me.

new people to MEET.

new friends i MAY have.

new times with OLD friends.

new me.

new you.

new her.

new life.

i know somehow rather i still need you

i know you're waiting but please dont

i need my space; i need my time

do more of it and it'll irritate me real bad

2010-03-23T00:10:00.002+08:00

just this for today. bedok lepak session.

~~and ITS OVER, got it over and done with~~

2010-03-21T17:22:00.002+08:00

im missing you like crazy babygirl.

i hope things were just like last time.

but i know we cant turn back time.

have a good future ahead love.

2010-03-20T03:12:00.005+08:00

and happy belated 3months to ex terloved!

you do well and you take care okay.

elly's always here for you:)

its been some time. just here and there.

the week has been great. really one of the best weeks i've ever had so far. met dd for 5 days straight now. since monday oi. and we got a hell good loads of sleeping time. unlike last time. phew! if not i'll be wiped out again. dd go back home la! haha! :) oh wells. weds was a ladies night for me and it was awesome. really great night. jay didnt get me drunk though. too bad! they were the ones whose oopps cant say. haha. da bye. let the pics do all the bickerings:)

2010-03-14T01:17:00.006+08:00

things are getting complicated.
i got no comments.

2010-03-13T01:07:00.004+08:00

1. driving sucks. especially parallel parking. mount kerb, strike kerb.

2. im following the flow with life. which i've never done before.

3. i feel so useless with no cash right now and i want to shop okay!

4. school holiday started ready and its a bore cause no job and no cash.

2010-03-10T00:37:00.005+08:00

my lepak session today! fun and interesting:) best oi!!

my hot hunkies and babies and junkies!

2010-03-08T22:49:00.003+08:00

now im just living the life that i'm given.

trying to go through every shit that i'll encounter.

i know i'll wait for the day when things are clear.

and i'll have a normal care-free life i used to have.

WFB was not bad. only some parts were a bit confusing though. okay 3 more days to go and im done with school! yes ar! after paper i went home and straight away slept like a log. tired okay. then went out at 7pm to go simei cc to study. good thing i can remember the notes. even i cant remember all, i manage to get some into my head:) im happy.

2010-03-08T00:33:00.005+08:00

i know i got to choose my path now

& dd i miss you so

& i love you much

2010-03-07T02:38:00.007+08:00

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet.

Girlfriend/boyfriend: You like serious, smart and determined people.

Relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well.

Love: Your have very sensible tactics.

Education: Education is very important in life

Job: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job.

Success: You are confident that you will be successful.

Afraid: You are afraid of having no one to rely on.

2010-03-07T00:29:00.004+08:00

first, oh god! i did facebook! haha.

second, dd needs me. i feel so useless. im not a good gf.

third, mom's been bugging me about going melbourne.

forth, exam starts on monday. shit

fifth, im tired done!

2010-03-06T03:01:00.004+08:00

i dont understand what i'm going through right now. first it's all good then it came to a bad ending. then good then bad but between the bad there's good but it's wrong then ergh! i dont even know what the phuck am i saying! god damn it. i just lost a friend. thanks.

2010-03-05T23:32:00.004+08:00

nothing much happened today. wells. didnt go to school. was on the phone with dd practically till dawn. damn sleepy. woke up late and grab a cab to CDC for my car prac then off to meet syakirin at bedok to accompany her to do something then met sis at national museum to catch a play.

okay one word for the play, "confusing". haha. gosh there's so many things going on. its interesting. i mean the concept of the play, still i didnt get the whole story. haha. had an average late dinner just now but my chocolate lava cake was awesome! :) dont be jealous. haha. had a great evening after all with sis and boyfriend.

2010-03-05T00:31:00.004+08:00

okay totally self obsessed with myself today.

haha no idea why but i think i look good today:)

just today. heh. went out to study over at one fullerton starbucks.

it was freezing cold okay!then went over to meet my peeps at tampines.

and im back home late today. gosh. and im super duper stress now.

exams is like in freaking 3 more days! and i miss my dd.

2010-03-04T13:50:00.007+08:00

friends? how do you define them.

there are true friends and there are also just the plain ones.

despite whatever shits that we've been through,

i know they'll always be there for me like how i am for them.

friends who you thought are perfect may just be the worst indeed.

wake up and open your eyes to see the real definition of friends.

dont be blind to choose the wrong ones.

and dont be stupid to pick the wrong ones.

meeting new group of friends is not a problem,

but forgetting the old ones is; know your root.

you wont tend to realise it anytime soon

and when you noticed, it'll just be a little too late.

no matter how much they scream at you or just ditched you,

you know they got their reasons to do so.

you know they're always there to pick you up when you fall.

and hold your hand to walk through your journey with you.

thanks loved ones who's always been there for me

aida, syakirin, adly, ash, faati, bert, khai

a special life created from you

2010-03-03T22:40:00.008+08:00

i miss my sugar

i am on the verge of giving up but i know i'll have to be patient and wait. no matter how much you made me tear, i am still going to keep trying to hold on. friends ask me to take the risks and so i am. being hurt or not, that'll be another. for now i know you're my sugar. till as long as i can wait, till then my heart will stay for you. just please dont do this to me. wake up and see that i need you.

nowadays, i notice i just have the urge to go back early. like today its just plain simple. school then back home to rest then off to driving then to tampines to meet my cliques then back home again and what time is it now. not even eleven. feels weird but yeah. here i am. exam's round the corner and as guessed, still got lots more chapters to go. i cant fit it inside my head. it's torturing. really. im mentally and physically tired. it hurts.

2010-03-02T23:56:00.005+08:00

study plus slack session. suppose to meet dd today but i was too tired to go up to boon lay and anyway he had plans as well. so yeah. got home and slept. effing tired okay. da bye. let the pictures do the talking.

2010-03-01T12:22:00.004+08:00

dd please dont leave me

please think it through properly

i miss you like crazy and i love you.

2010-03-01T01:05:00.006+08:00

was out to town. met adly ahky and rachel. forced dd down as he said he was bored at home. after 3 of them went off, me and dd went to eat at KFC while waiting for baby and khai. they came at like 8.30pm. late. waited since 7pm. gosh. went back to tamp to wait for adly then grab a bus back home. simple yet laughable evening.

2010-02-28T00:59:00.006+08:00

its been straight one week i met my smurf. days has been hectic but somehow or rather we managed to pull it through. after one problem another comes up. whoa. pening la kepale. i love smurf and i think everyone knows that:) oh wells let it not be another relationship nightmare. i hope. oh god please help me go through thick and thin with him. insyallah.

and to my friends; i hope your relationships are going smoothly. aida & dydy i know yours is. no matter how much shit you guys went through. still together. adly & ahky i love you guys. please pull it through. syakirin & shafiq i know days are counted but baby me and jack are always here to console you or talk about things. faati & bert i know you guys have your problems and im always the ear listener for both. but you guys clear it up soon and be happy okay. fifiebaby whoever you're with right now, im just a call away alright love. dont ruin yourself.

2010-02-27T14:46:00.004+08:00

Saye Sayang Kamu

this week has been really hectic. i swear. it was the most tiring week. drinking sessions plus school plus slack everyday till 1 am and ton. whoa. crazy i tell you. and i did it just because of you. haish. dumb huh? but its okay. for now. once you move house and hols will come, things going to be better. hopefully insyallah. and and! im missing alot of people right now but im not sure particularly who.

and friends whom i've been missing out with. im sorry. but i just want you to know that i'm still here for you. please dont be angry. especially aida. i love you rakan rakan.

2010-02-23T09:27:00.005+08:00

freaking in school now. bored + sleepy. haish. i want to sleep! went home at 4+ 5 in the morning when i had to be in school at like 8am which of course i was late. duh. typical elly. heh. okay bye. thats all. might be going woodlands later to study with afan. and also to settle some other matters. good malam people. elly want to hybernate:)

and between me and babe, alhamdulilah da okay. so yeah. people people. please please stop disturbing my life if i didn't disturb yours. sick and tired of you people out there talking non stop. aren't you guys tired. let me be ME! and stop judging my partner. especially the one i'm with now.

2010-02-23T00:20:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ASH CRAWFORD!!

and hey babe, if you ain't happy with me, please say straight to my face.dont talk about me behind my back please.we made a deal not to bitch behind each other's back then why still do it?i ain't your kid okay.stop it and grow up.you're turning 21 babe not 12.act like one then. you really piss us off.

2010-02-22T13:46:00.002+08:00

yesterday was shit. the whole day was fucked up.

to boii: im just so sorry that i slapped you. i know its going to be hard for you to forgive me but you really make my darah go upstairs. and if your friends want to find me, go ahead. but tell them who's at fault before they even lay hands on me yeah. take curry dude.

and saye miss saye nye dd okay. haiyo. oh wells even he's beside me right now sleeping cause he's sick and just took medicine. cute okay si adly ngan si jack ni sleep. haha. macam small kids oi! heh. okay bye.

2010-02-21T00:54:00.004+08:00

elly ego. elly self centred. elly this elly that. wow! im the bitch im the asshole. whatever you guys want to say about me being the bad one and about me being the busted one. go ahead. cause you guys dont know the real damn story. so yeah dont know, dont want to know then dont act like you know. bullshit. then you guys can fuck off and die and stop telling me what to do. cause boii dont fucking want to talk to me. how the fuck i want to talk to her??! FUCK YOU!

"I WANT TO MEET ALL IMPORTANT PEOPLE FROM THE WOODLANDS SIDE. ON THURSDAY, 25TH OF FEB AT 8PM. ONE ABSENTEE, WE'LL CANCEL THE WHOLE THING AND MAKE IT ANOTHER DAY UNTIL EVERYONE TURNS UP. IMPORTANT PEOPLE INCLUDES PEOPLE WHO POKE THEIR BLOODY FUCKING NOSE" - sincerely baby.

to all budak budak yang lepak woodlands. and to whose involve. you know who you are.

2010-02-20T12:45:00.003+08:00

i just noticed how people survive through with their lies. i used to have too many partners who lies. is it a hobby or just a habit? its not surprising but i still wonder why you lied your whole way through with me. im sure my name was brought down damn bad. oh wells, little boys. cant say much. make up your mind and stop playing with girl's hearts cause they're not meant to be toyed with asshole. wake up to your senses and knock some if you think you've got none. you can never run away with your mistakes cause i'll know. ~~and dont ever say I LOVE YOU if you never meant a thing.~~

2010-02-20T00:57:00.005+08:00

you're a jerk la boy.

grow up with your lies.

d im missing you already. i hope you're here with me. gosh. i hate this. and im sorry i cant be there with you. i'll try make you happy okay:) saye sayang kamu doh!

2010-02-19T00:34:00.004+08:00

i dont understand what im going through right now and never will. i dont wish to say im lucky to have them. i trully appreciate it but i only need one which is YOU. for now, you're the best i can ever have to go through this hectic life. i know we're both tied down with lots of things to solve. i'll wait. i dont need sacrifices to be done just to win my heart cause i just want to see how far you can go. and stop testing my bloody patience.

the month of February sucks.

~~EVERY SINGLE ONE IS DOWN WITH PROBLEMS!~~

2010-02-17T00:09:00.003+08:00

despite whatever happens,

i'll still smile and stay happy:)

2010-02-16T00:25:00.003+08:00

today's the worst day ever!

sayang im sorry that i didnt meet you today as im busy.

people whom you actually respected really brings you down.

all i can say im in tears.

2010-02-15T00:15:00.010+08:00

valentine's day was just simple. its just a slack session with my cute lovable hunks. heh.

elly featuring jack, ash, boii, afan and adly.

2010-02-14T02:17:00.004+08:00

I HATE TODAY!

WORK, DRINK AND FIGHTS.

that wraps it all for today.

2010-02-13T00:50:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADLY SHAH!

first i didnt go work. second someone made me cry. third i feel so fucked up about everything today. forth how i wish i never had today. fifth can i rewind the time please?

2010-02-12T00:06:00.003+08:00

today;

1. Pick boii up from east coast

2. Went to Mac to eat

3. Waited for someone but he didnt come

4. Went over to Tamp to slack with Meh & Ifah

5. Went home at 11pm.

& oh! i while i was sitting down, a roach went up my leg. shit! oh my god. disgusting.

& im so damn confused right now. god help me.

& babygirl, chill out, cheer up. i know hes capable of taking care of you.

2010-02-11T00:34:00.002+08:00

oh gosh! work has been a horror. had an attachment over a Paragon Island Shop. then had a short meal between before i went over to Tangs. damn it was crowded like crazy. never ending okay. run here and there. perspiring la okay. wah leg pain! i wish i could transfer to Paragon outlet. okay done bye.

2010-02-10T01:01:00.003+08:00

besides all the happy moments today, there was some bad ones as well.

2010-02-09T01:12:00.007+08:00

explain what life means to me right now

~~COMPLICATED~~

2010-02-08T00:09:00.002+08:00

weekends of work were awesome. haha. work's per norm; tiring. but okay. met boi and ifah on saturday after work. then jack, ahmoy, ash, ahky, cha, wawa, roy and wawa's friend came down. ade la kan problem. okay done settled. gosh im having role play tomorrow and i haven't even remember my script. how cool is that. okay bye. i miss farhana and muhammad akif:) and i miss my happy happy friends.

2010-02-05T00:01:00.001+08:00

can someone show me the meaning of it?

2010-02-04T00:29:00.005+08:00

today is 4th fuck!

~~happy belated one year dude~~

i just wish i can forget him but i dont think i can.

im trying.

someone please help me.

i miss him mann.

2010-02-03T00:26:00.006+08:00

people! i've been busy with freaking loads of school work which is still not done but i still got the time to blog. heh. i've been with these bunches for quite some time. ~~she likes me!~~ haha. im touched. thanks for the days dude:)

im getting the hang of it. md.akif come back!!

2010-02-02T00:01:00.006+08:00

my dear brother's(adly) attached! yay im so happy for her. at last kan kan? true love. and her girlfriend freaking look like me la okay. scary. omg! haha. oh wells congratulations. one down lots more to go. heh. elly now misses him so dearly much even words cant describe okay. hope he feels better now with his problems. poor akif. haish. and ehem ehem special surprise in my life now. for me to know, for you guys to find out:)

2010-01-30T00:29:00.006+08:00

saye sungguh gembire hari ini dapat bertemu semula dengannya. alhamdulilah.

im glad things went out okay. laughing and smiling as usual. i dont know if he's really back but well i know i still have him somehow or rather and im thankful enough. he just makes me happy but at the same point of time, i just felt like crying too remembering what happened a few days ago. anauhibuka.

2010-01-28T23:38:00.007+08:00

things has been bad lately between me and him. im trying so hard to explain and yet you just wont listen. please hear me out. im missing you dear friend.

220110

2010-01-25T17:27:00.009+08:00

school's tiring!

life's worst

everyone's down with problem

you're not happy with me or my friends, just say

cause not noticing it; they used to be yours too

dont blame others for no reason

you're the bitch so stop calling me that

if you dont notice it, now im telling you

get a life and stop ruining others

i cant get enough of him:)

shyboy/ cuteboy/ gayboy

2010-01-24T13:53:00.005+08:00

damn wavehouse was fun. the songs were boring when it came to the end. crowd was hectic but oh not so kecoh after all. quite disappointing. everyone met everyone there. dance with lots of peeps. some scary some okay. hot babes hot hunks. clears it all. then after wavehouse went to crash at azura for a lilttle cyadalic dance. haha.

2010-01-23T01:09:00.005+08:00

All About Today

Met a cute guy after I met my usuals. Had a great time knowing and talking to him. Though he's shy boy as it was his first time meeting me, I know he ain't like that. Thanks Joanne for letting me know him:)

2010-01-21T23:59:00.003+08:00

while i was walking down one fullerton and looking at the surroundings, people were laughing while having their dinner chatting and enjoying. sometimes i just forget what it means to have fun and have a loved one by your side. its coming 3 months and im still hanging on. trying to be strong. looking at gfs with their bfs, do make me happy and upset at the same point of time. i envy them alot. sometimes i just wonder why he did that to me. i miss him like crazy. and i can never forget him. leaving me with just one question, 'Why?'

2010-01-19T16:24:00.008+08:00

had a super fun time camwhoring with jen in class. wohoo! and the pictures are oh so cute and funny. been some time since i took pictures with her. fun okay. just deleted a post that people commented. haha. guess what?! it has been after such a long long time since i went to school for the whole damn day. haha. i see a change. will it last or stay the same... okay bye. i dont know what else to say. i miss him i miss her:( and oh i noticed something, your personal message on msn does matter to people around you. heh

and oh im pretty upset i didn't get to bid my goodbye to a friend. i regret.

2010-01-19T00:50:00.005+08:00

It describes it all.

now life's all about negativity. no more positive elly.

been crushing and been missing people.

school's a miss and life's a horror.

hope someone would come and save me from this torture.

to you: happy belated 1 month:(

i miss being with you.

2010-01-18T00:20:00.004+08:00

my my. sorry didnt update. days have been hectic and busy. out till late night. tonning. riding. party. everything. just too many things on mind. well my days are counted too see how much ive suffered. it's living hell. i seem to go blog hopping and everyone has problems. with me or just their own life. how fast time flies and its 2010. its not a good start for me and some of my friends either:(

to afan: i dont care what you want to say cause that's what i see. dont say you love me after what you did and dumping me, leaving me astray when i need you the most. im just hurt about what i read. its so incredible how much you can bitch about me and still be nice in front. im shocked. do you actually know how bloody much i loved you??

im just so sick of whats happening right now. tons and tons of problems are rising in everyone's life. is it just me or is it just january?

and its 18th today. stuck up stuck up. sungguh. and tomorrow's 19th.

2010-01-11T01:02:00.005+08:00

had dinner with dan just now over at katong,'Everything with Fries' is the name of the place. dan was super disappointed with his food. haha. serve him right. then we rode down over to tamp to meet khai and gang. kirin and ifah came down as well. kirin and me are just mere bitches. right baby?? haha! assholes. overall i had a short yet fun night. laughing and all. so yeah. trying to make myself happy.

~~and just one thing kid; I WASTED MY TIME LOVING YOU.~~

2010-01-10T03:37:00.003+08:00

slacked with syakirin, khai, wawa, cha, fido, ifah, hassan ans more of their other friends.

i rode khai's bike back. when we were going tamp, i was in front and he was at the back but i told him no no cannot. mati sia. then on the way back, i controlled his clutch and gear while he relax onlu rest. haha. poor him. tired la kan. whatever. haha. tomorrow will be another day.

and its fucking over! just like that. because she still love her bloody ex gf and saying her life was too stuck up. oh well little kids. grow up okay love? cause you're just in denial. when i asked you to go back to her. 'tak nak la! you giler pe?!' now this. bullshit. you really test my patience. told you so you're just using me. kirekan. da pakai buang la kan. sebiji macam fi la perangai kau.

2010-01-09T12:27:00.005+08:00

the thought of her not being by my side trully hurts. i miss her truck lots. i dont even know whats my status right now. she left it hanging. i haven't seen her in a week not till later late afternoon. that's just to pass me back my things. what's her point? oh my. i dont know what she wants from me now. to say you love me that you cant let go, i dont think so. if not you would have trust me thats just a prank.

like i've said to you love, i dont believe in time break. i told you when we first got together. if this is the type of relationship you're looking for, let me go. cause it aint my cup of tea. i want the old you. i dont think you're damn busy as you still have time to slack with your friends. i just think you're ashamed to show that im your bloody gf. leave if you want.

dont be fickle minded. its irritating. the marks you made right before you left, will always be a memory for me. to remind me of you. your smile, your hug, your laughter, your irratatingness, your kiss... just about everything. i bloody miss you. shit la. haish. and i freaking love you okay.

2010-01-09T00:32:00.005+08:00

today today today. i didnt go for class! i fucking woke up late and mom just noticed i was still in bed at 10plus when she actually got home at 9. funny right? straight away got up to bath and get ready all. my laziness overcame me that i took cab to school:) heh. then after school, went to meet a few friends to have a heavy lunch! damn my stomach hurts.

rushed home then went to cut my hair!! ah! now my hair is super short. haha. went to do abit of shopping for tops and work pants plus my toiletries. me, cha and ifah had dinner over s11 and we waited for our rojak for 1hour 15mins to be precised. and 30 mins for our kuay teow been hoon goreng. ridiculous right? damn it.

then slacked somewhere around afghan. me and cha camwhore like crazy kids man! fun giler. heh. then ifah didnt wana take cause she say she look horrible without make up. and i've picked up new phrase "right right". haha. dont know where i learn it from also. okay da bye! let the pictures discuss.

2010-01-08T00:29:00.006+08:00

there's this fucker who has been calling my gf and telling her not to disturb me saying that im his/her freaking friend's gf. think what? funny ar! hey fucker! you're ruining my bloody relationship la okay. kalau kau brani buat, brani tanggong! you fucking call me and admit who the fuck you are! what the hell is your bloody motive doing all this? trying to break me and her up? kau pikir klakar pe??!

afan, if you're reading this. please dont believe what he/she say. come on ar. can you like trust me please. you nak jadi player balek? im not at fault sia. damn it. its just a fucking prank. please la baby. wake up! i know im capable of doing it. but hey im not okay!! i freaking love you alot la sia! and you freaking ask for a time break? think what? funny ar! nak break, cakap je la! ergh!! and you claim that you're single and available. sape yang tak leh trust sape now?? me or you? and quit your fucking drug habits la sial

2010-01-07T00:18:00.005+08:00

really been pigging la okay! after school then went home to sleep. went out about like hmm almost 7pm to get cigarettes then met ifah, khai and aida at afghan. was suppose to go festival park la kan. but ayie wasnt coming down. so we dropped the plan. then cha and toyol came down. we slacked till like 11 plus plus. but aida went off first la. at 9 gitu. siang kan. haha. dydy marah:)

and about babylove. haish she purposely dont want to meet me la okay. she'll come out with all sorts of excuses. i dont even know why mann. whats the point of me being your gf then? i want to stand by you okay love. kau tak nampak ke yang aku sayang kau giler babi?? let me go through all the shits with you.

2010-01-05T18:54:00.003+08:00

second day of orientation. smoked with juniors. haha. cool right? okay whatever. its been a damn tiring two days and tomorrow's going to be another. shit sia. been pigging at home staright after i get home from school. people have been calling me but i just couldnt be bothered to pick up. heh:) and omg! i havent meet nurarfani for fucking 2 days now! i miss her like crazy la sia. and she hasn't contact me for one whole day okay. mane die go?? haish. and ifah's cranking up an attitude. what's wrong mann? dont be a coward and face it! dont go missing just because of a small thing. and i miss siti chacha. heh. im so gona get fucked because of her name. oh well. i miss her! come back now la. woodlands woodlands. roy eh? haha! kidding.

2010-01-04T02:16:00.002+08:00

~~happy belated 11th month to awak~~

but now saye miss my sugar banyak banyak. saye sayang die okay

so cannot accept, phuck off, can accept, stay and smile

and sayang im sorry about last two nights, admit im a bitch:)

2010-01-03T23:48:00.006+08:00

things now are better. alhamdulillah. but sometimes i just cant understand why people just cant accept me of not being staright. okay i know langgar agame and all shits like that. but hey. its me and i choose to be this way. so stop it already. i love my girlfriend and i want to be this way. im trying to slowly understand and trust my gf. she's been a dear but sometimes she does gets on my nerves. dont know why im putting on good words for her. but yeah. and i just met her just now and im missing her badly already. we're both starting school and schedule going to be hectic! damn it. less of friends and gf:( nevermind. will find time. no problem.

2010-01-03T02:42:00.004+08:00

the starting of 2010 is bad. just like the continuation of 2009. the feeling sucks real bad and i just feel like dropping down and give up. everything. work, family, friends. girlfriend, boyfriends. all! nothing seemed to be going the right way. whats more is there to say? is this going to continue? cause if it is im not prepared and damn this life. i swear.

and you. making life difficult for me. time and time again i hear this and that about you. its hard for me to accept. but true or not i dont know. please stop it. stop ruining this love. you're not saving the sinking ship. all you're doing is saving your own butt. you're just giving in cause you know you're losing me and you dont want that to happen. but you didnt realise even the simplest mistake you're causing trouble. i dont want people to think im a bad girlfriend. cause i know im not. the problem lies in you love. and oh love. i never did say it was over. you assumed too much.